Imagine that you want to cum so, so desperately. You have been denied now for days and days.. weeks and weeks.. and you are just so horny, so continually horny that you can't stand it any longer. You really need to orgasm right now.
You reach down and touch and you feel the constraints of cold hard metal. You can feel the skin of your cock, but although it is straining desperately, it can't get fully hard. You give a little pull on the device, and feel it jar against the PA ring which is padlocked on.
This is the point at which you would give in.. The continual sexual frustration has built up so much now you just don't know what to do with yourself. It is overwhelming you, the emotion is overwhelming you, and you writhe around on the bed because you just can't get comfortable or be still.
And you try thrusting against the duvet..nothing.. you try rubbing around the device..nothing, and you begin to realise this is really it. You are owned now and there is nothing you can do about it. No matter how badly you want to give in you just can't. And you whimper audibly into the air at your helplessnes, and you cup your hand over your face at your lack of ability to help yourself, and you feel your eyebrows furrow in utter despair.. and the whimpering becomes louder, and louder, and more heartfelt, until you are sobbing. Wet tears run down your face and your cock throbs and you feel way out of your depth. You cry, big whole bodily sobs.
And you begin talking to yourself, begging please... just saying please in the hope it will help or bring relief..
It isn't fair anymore, and you are frustrated. You are angry even, so angry that you can't even wank your own cock any more. This is way harder than you could ever have imagined. You have lost yourself, truly to someone else.
All you can do is wait for her to relieve you.. and suddenly you realise how desperately you need her. How you rely on her. How you love her so very much.
Love and anger mixed..
It's almost too much..
And as you sob, heartily into your pillow, you know at the bottom of you, you wouldn't wish it any other way. You know that if she released you and let you orgasm you would be truly saddened.
This is the life you need.
This is the life of the owned chastity slave.
This is the beautiful life.
I recognise the paradox : being locked away (CB6000 helt tight to the body with a steel waist chain locked on to the cage an closed with a 4 numbered padlock - no spare key...) waiting frustrated for even a little bit of relief being left throbbing hour after hour day after day even week after week, the view of a women passing by on the street with a bit high heels stocking tight jeans or the half exposed breasts when a whomen bends over makes the burdon even harder but i don't want anything else....
ReplyDeleteTx for your very nice writing its like looking into a mirror ;-))
(Excuse me if you find spelling mistakes or other wrong english but english is not my original language)